I think I have realised somthing that I knew, I want to say a while ago. I need to loose weight/inches whatever. I haven't "realised" it until now because flat and simple, I am lazy. I have tried to do this in the past for other people, if that makes any sense. For my brother because he would always call me fat, for my friend who wanted a friend to loose weight with her, so on and so on. What I have realised is I have to do this for me, and I have to do it alone. That is the only way it's going to work, at least for me and who I am.
What really pushed me over the edge was I was talking to my mother; the conversation went just a little like this:
"Why dont you loose weight?" (mother)
"I'm lazy, and it's not that I can't because I know how, I just dont feel like it. and yet I still want to"
"I think you're scared"
Her telling me that made me do a double take.
"why?"
"because you are pretty, and if you were skinnier you would be gorgeous, and I think you're scared because it's like unkown ground"
Trust me I know there is some messed up logic in there, but in that conversation I kind of figured it out. I dont want to fail, I stop myself from doing so much just because I am terrified of failling. I have never failed anything, and I know thats why I was so terrified of taking my driving test.
I know how to loose weight because I have done it before, then was like ehh i dont care "hello, crap food when I go out with friends"
At home I eat healthily. I am not one of those people who eats pizza and frozen dinners, I am the type of person who has breakfast a fruit as a snack, than eat a salad for lunch, go home and eat dinner.
Long story short, I am turning myself around. I am confidant about myself, but who wouldnt want more confidence?
I dont want to put this on my YouTube channel, because its a little personal and I am not one of those people who will put EVERYTHING out there. I will be posting more on this, but as of right now I am getting everything in order. I think I will be starting Project: _____ (i need a name for that lol) by wednesday. I will see how things pan out.
I hope you have a great day!
--Andrea--
Helloooo. I, as well need to make a change in my life. I'm about 200 pounds *DEEP SIGH* and people tell me ALL the time how beautiful they think I would be if I lost weight. It's a struggle, and I too am lazy as shit. I've started dieting, haven't seen any results yet and I think that's why I never stick to my dieting plan. I want to see results QUICK or I'll get discouraged and give up..but I somehow have to force myself to keep going and that weight loss isn't as easy to lose as it was to gain.
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