Sometimes I lose faith in everyone. Some places I have gotten myself into scare me. Somedays I don't know where to look for hope, and yet someone can come along and change all of it.
I honestly don't want to say what's been going on with me except the bottom line, that one person came into my life a long time ago and when they left, they also left their wake. Then they decided to come back and remind me how painful it was. All i can do is thank my best friend to the ends of the earth, she was there for me. She really came through for me, and i wouldn't have it any other way. She restored me as a person, without her I'd be sleeping under my covers surrounded by bowls of ice cream. I never thought I'd ever say this about anyone but she understands me as a person, when most of the times I don't understand myself.
This quote could not explain it better:
“Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view again.”
Having a brother, I always get into things that I wouldn't if I let say had a sister. If I had a sister we'd get our nails done, go shopping, and basically do girl things. Having a younger brother is a whole new territory and if you have one you know exactly what I'm talking about. I don't know anybody who has the relationship with their brother that I do with mine. We fight but at the end of the day, we both know we'll be there for each other.
I got my wisdom teeth pulled out today, and have been rolling around in my own misery for the past, I dont know, 7 hours. My brother, who is younger than me by about 2 years, walks in all triumphant and says, "I'll give you $25 if you eat this!" with these eyes that basically said you couldn't do it even if you wanted to. I'm a person who never turns down a challenge so of course I take him up on it. Then he tells me that our big macho man neighbor cried eating one. I was still determined. I ate about 1/2 of the pepper and he says "I kinda want to keep my money... but I'll still give it to you." At this point it felt like my tongue was being attacked by a million killer bees but I knew that I could eat it if I put my mind to it. I realized that was his hard earned money and I convinced him to just give me $5 for what I had already eaten. I had to hold a bit of tiramisu on my tongue so that it would stop burning, and I'm a girl who can hold her spice.
If I didn't have a brother I wouldn't be the person I am today. He's definitely made me a stronger, wittier, and generally better person. I have a lot more fight in me because of him, and I am definitely eternally grateful. He has grown up to be such a great person, I love him to death, and would do anything for him... even if he does annoying brotherly things like spill a whole cup of ice cream in my car, but to be fair he tried to help clean it up.
